Some people with great integrity get behind causes I don't fully understand or believe in. Others with an obvious lack of character stand for causes I support. It seems it's always this way.
With midterm elections looming, I'm forced to rethink my political views. How much I would like to believe in and vote for a leader instead of casting a vote which in reality is only a vote against an issue or against someone else. Doing nothing seems better than taking action I don't believe in. I've wondered whether I might shred the absentee ballot with my name on it, that right now sits on our dining room table, a thought that brings tears to my eyes.
And, yet, grace precedes and follows me everywhere I go. This week alone, I have been gifted with several long conversations.
Luckily, she took a restroom break and this fell into my brain: I believe I know what I think about this because of what I have read and seen. She believes she knows, based on what she has read and seen. I shared this with her when she returned to the table, and we both readily agreed. Later, I tried researching "facts" and could find nothing clear to substantiate what either of us had so convincingly stated during our conversation.
Yesterday after work, I started out for a short walk and ended up at the pond, where I felt drawn to twin oak trees, by the sound of red wing blackbirds gathered among the branches. Even as I wondered about the wisdom of standing directly beneath them, I rested my palm against the trunk and looked up while I let the sound of their chatter fall on me and fill me. I don't know the signal, or who gave it, but with one silent sweep they took to the air. I ran to watch for them, and a short time later located them in the taller cottonwoods a short distance away. They took with them my angst, and I walked home in peace. No matter what, I cannot let these lovely days go by unnoticed and un-savored.
At last, I am once again in touch with my own inner knowing. And I'm able to fill out my ballot with a sense of clarity and inner peace. I hope the same for each of you.