Occasionally during the conversation, Catherine stopped herself in order to reference her feeling that she was "rambling"--only she wasn't. I tracked with her the whole way, resonating deeply with the points in her story. By the time she finished, we both recognized that we are friends.
Catherine is energetic and smart. She attempts to live into life's questions. She's quirky and candid. And she has a big heart.
What speaks most to me about her story is that so many things have converged in her life recently, causing chaos, and filling her with creative energy. As unsettling as it is, out of the chaos has emerged a sense of clarity, and a path. Catherine's path is a spiritual one, and the trailhead is called PrairieFire--something that wakes her up and reveals existing connections. She seems to think she just hasn't been paying attention. But, no. Awakening comes on its own, when we are truly ready.
And this is actually a re-awakening; a return to earlier pursuits, to first loves, to things long held in darkness and silence, gestating; ready now for Catherine's attention and energy, ripe for this moment. It requires courage and imagination to pursue such a course. It requires listening to and interpreting the demands of your soul; and being engaged in the present moment of your own life. And in our "do it all-have it all" culture, it requires making clear-hearted, concrete choices for your own sake.